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Peter’s Lullaby: A Song Without Words That Held a Little Girl's Life Together Reviewed By Brenda Nieves of Bookpleasures.com
- By Brenda Nieves
- Published April 17, 2012
- Biographies & Memoirs
Brenda Nieves
Reviewer
Brenda Nieves: Brenda has recently retired from social worker after
eleven years spent working with the mentally ill and within the
criminal justice system. Originally from New Mexico, Brenda has lived
in Florida for the past fifteen years and is married with one
daughter. Since 2009, Brenda has had works of non-fiction published
in anthologies, various magazines, and online publications. She is
currently a staff writer for both Blindfold and Gridlock magazines.
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Author: Jean Fowler
Publisher: Daisy Chain Publishing, 2005
ISBN: 0-9771975-0-6
When
20th century journalist and author Herbert Ward wrote “Child abuse
casts a shadow the length of a lifetime”, his intent to highlight
the lifelong difficulties that abused children faced fell mostly on
deaf ears and would continue to do so for a long time to come. It is
because of this shameful past that authors like Jeanne Fowler have
such heart wrenching tales to tell.
In her memoir Peter’s Lullaby
Fowler recounts what it was like growing up with an alcoholic and
abusive mother and a seemingly browbeaten and at times reticent
step-father. The memoir begins with the author describing the last
few moments of being ‘hung’ in her closet before police and
firemen arrived to rescue her and her siblings from unbearable
torture. Fowler describes with great detail the blood soaked cloth
that held her wrists tied above her head and the resulting pain to
her shoulders from having to endure such a position repeatedly. In
this opening chapter we are given a clear picture not only of the
physical abuse suffered but also the psychological damage done to her
and her siblings.
As the author’s sister Jill screams terrified at
the sight of the officers and their attempts to rescue them, it is
Fowler’s words that help us to understand the twisted and scarred
mental landscape that is the abused child’s mind. From this first
chapter, the author moves to telling her story in chronological order
having advised readers of her reliance upon official records to make
up for information not remembered or never before known to produce a
coherent story.
We follow the author through her earliest memories as
a three year old child being beaten with a belt by her mother for
some unknown reason, to the birth of her brother Peter, and what she
and her siblings had to endure at the hands of mentally unbalanced
alcoholic mother. Like so many other children in similar situations,
Fowler and her siblings had come to the attention of the authorities
thanks to reports from family and neighbors but ultimately, the
parents’ right to their children trumped the needs of the child.
Early on in the book we learn that little Peter has found a coping
mechanism which allows him some relief from the daily torture.
Young
Peter has made up a wordless lullaby which he frequently hums to
himself following the savage beatings meted out by his mother. Fowler
recognizes the lullaby for what it is and encourages Peter to use it
partly out of love for her brother and a desire to help him find an
escape and partly for herself as reassurance that Peter has managed
to survive another hellish day. Early on in the book we come to the
events that lead to Fowler and her sibling’s rescue and to the
death of her brother Peter. In these chapters, the author recounts in
ghastly detail the wicked and methodical torture used by her mother
to punish her and Peter for the crime of being hungry. It is sad to
think that any child would be punished for such a thing; it is
heartbreaking to think that it would cost a child their life.
Following
Peter’s death and the arrest of both mother and
step-father, we follow the author through foster placements both good
and bad. We are re-introduced to foster parents who show love and
compassion and the promise of a bright future only to learn that all
hope is snatched away by a serious illness. As the author is moved
from one foster placement to the next, she shows us the fear and
mistrust that are the inevitable end products of an abusive and
chaotic childhood. Like so many children in foster care during those
years, Fowler was subjected to more abuse that went undetected due in
large part to the neglect of social service workers in following up
on the progress of their charges.
Yet despite the continued abuse at the hands of foster parents, the author shows an inner strength that ultimately allows her to face down her tormentors and reclaim some semblance of self-worth. Reading Peter’s Lullaby one gets the sense that the story is less about the awful circumstances that led to a little boy’s death but more about the author’s courage to survive a nightmarish childhood with the help of her brother’s memory and his haunting wordless tune .
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